Drained

After yesterday's tension, and considering shiva didn't start until 1 PM and our checkout time was 11 AM and we didn't sleep well so we didn't feel like killing two hours, plus we're now both under the weather as predicted (and it continues to be sub-freezing), we checked out at 10 and went straight home. My CA sis-in-law called later in the morning to make sure I was okay; still haven't heard from the Jersey side. But I'm just too wiped to think about that now. We napped a bit (but not enough), caught up on DVR'ed stuff like the Rose Parade, and generally wound down. I suspect I'll start crying again soon, when I have the energy, but to tell the truth Mom had been wasting away for at least a year so I've been crying on and off at least that long anyway. Now my life moves forward in whatever direction I want to go without anything anchoring me, and I just need to figure out what that direction is. But not tonight.