The Great Exhale

I've been hinting for awhile that things have not been well, that it has nothing to do with my health, and that I couldn't really talk about it. The shoe has finally dropped and I can now break my silence. Like many other businesses feeling the impacts of COVID-19, our firm has had to downsize, restructure, what-have-you. We let a number of non-EA professionals go a couple weeks back, and today was the executive assistants' turn, which we were informed a few weeks back was imminent. In these adjectival times one never knows if one will be impacted. I was fairly confident I'd remain based on my skill set, performance reviews, value added, etc., but again, not with 100% certainty. Fortunately, I made the cut this time - actually the fourth time in my long career that I dodged a bullet (I was the last admin assistant standing at my first two long-term jobs, and I survived the 2008 crash's impact on Rothstein Kass). I'm still in shock over the whole weeks-long process, plus I have survivor's guilt because of my work colleagues/friends who are no longer employed. I'm still waiting for my body to calm down, but I think that once it does my back pain will ease, as I suspect that's where I was holding a lot of the tension. Long story short, I'm safe and still employed, for the foreseeable future.